Hi Eliza ❤️, here’s your message of the day

21/04/2025 - Even tho we are taking a break, I hope you know I'll always be here for you eliza. You have made the last 3 years of my life a treat to live, I'm sorry I wasn't good enough and didn't mature as I should have. I'm not even sure if you'll ever read this but I just can't stop thinking about you. Everytime I didn't know what to do, i'd always turn to you and well now i don't know what to do. I hope you will give me another chance at being yours as I adored every second of it. Even if you don't love me, I still love you and always will I think. I'm sorry and if you ever need to speak please speak to me I don't know what else to do :)

26/04/2025 - This is day, I’m not even sure what day it is now, it feels like a lifetime since I’ve seen you. It seems silly, but the moment I seem to think about anything I always just go back to you. I can’t get you out of my head and I just want to see you and talk to you and idk this is silly anyway you’re never going to read this sadly, but I’m still holding out hope you’ll give me another chance in the future, I just can’t live without you. Currently trying to do this on my phone and get my thoughts out before bed, but i just dont know if it is going to help or not. My instagram feed is also really not helping me, every 2 seconds there is another one about being with your gf and whatnot that i just can't handle, i think it must have broken me at least 4-5 times today already. Why am i so stupid writing this, it feels so wrong bc you wont read it and if you do you'll just think im a weirdo, if you didnt before that is. Uh idk what to do now. It feels good to get the things out of my head but i dont think they'll make any difference to anything. I wonder if you'll ever read this, idk message me back if you ever do I suppose. Anyway sweet dreams my darling im sorry for being so stupid.

27/04/2025 - Day almost 7 of not being with you, it's not getting easier despite the time going by. People keep telling me it'll get easier but it's not and idk what to do. I want to message and speak to you all day but I can't. You at work today was challenging, I couldn't speak to you for hours and it felt like a lifetime before you came back, and then the reality hit me again and it just all went wrong. This weekend has been so difficult and all I can think about is you. Sorry for being weird again, I know you won't read this but I'm thinking of you, I can't stop it. Added dates now to try and keep track of time, but it's going by so slowly I miss you like you could not imagine.

28/04/2025 - I hope you're doing ok-ish everything is still reminding me of you. I almost completely lost it on the train in this morning. It's funny bc I wouldn't normally get the train with you either it was just being alone I think and the thoughts of you. I know you said you wouldn't but I'm still absolutely petrified of you forgetting me, and it's silly bc we're not together at the moment but the thought of you getting with someone else just breaks me down completely. My emotional shielding cannot take those thoughts. I don't know what to think anymore even after our talk last night which was nice in one way I completely broke down after and just couldn't do anything to stop. Anyways I hope you are doing better than me lol :)

07/05/2025 - I hope you're doing ok, I don't really know what or how to describe how i'm feeling. It feels like time goes by so slowly now, it feels like its been a lifetime since I've seen you, it's been a little over 2 weeks, but I think its going to get a lot more difficult for me soon for both my birthday and our day. I don't know if ill be able to hold it together, but I suppose that's what bedrooms are for. I wish I could talk to you but that's probably for the best that we can't otherwise i'm not sure I could handle it and not being able to see you. I'm not sure what to do but i'm sure you're doing ok with your friends and that I hope works well and that too and your family is all ok too. I didn't realise how difficult this would be, but I think it's going well idk how to describe it. It's not ok but i think i've learnt not to break down and hold it in until later which is a good start.

One final msg: I ❤️ youuuu!